Good Bye

May 14, 2008 at 7:19 am (Uncategorized)

I want to say thank you for the beautiful and kind words you left me.  It is more than I got from anyone I know. I have one friend in life but she lives on another continent in another time zone and country, she is dear and special and has been tremendously important.  It does not however offer the physical presence of human contact I so absolutely need.

I want to thank her here for everything she has done for me and meant to me and tell her that I love her dearly.

My life fell apart a long time ago, I tried to glue the pieces together I tried to carry on, each day took every ounce of strength I had just to survive, it took five years to get the courage together to confront the truth and it shattered me completely, there is no coming back from this.

Maybe there is someone else and maybe there is not but he certainly is not around here.

I started this blog to try and find some place in this world where I could just say I am not invisible, I exist and it has been a tremondous experience. For a few months I had a reason to get up in the mornings, I had a reason to smile again, I had, almost most importantly, a reason to be creative again.  When creative juices flow the soul can heal.

But this is one hurt too many and I know how pathetic and useless I am, I love this man with all my soul but I hate so much what he has done, he was the only reason I had to live.

I do not think I will continue with this blog but I have decided not to delete it, as long as you keep downloading the links will remain active but you do not need to leave any comments as there will be no one here to read them.  Maybe the rest of my story will help others. I know some of it is in Afrikaans and many of you cannot read those parts but I live in Namibia and the news and events I responded to at the time where in the lives of Afrikaaners, my people.

I thought of naming these two people and shaming them but they have to live with what they have done.

Thank you so much to all 30 000 + of you who came to visit me here, please if you have someone that loves you love them and appreciate them.



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Scrapbooking Updates

May 10, 2008 at 7:28 am (Uncategorized)

I will not be posting any new scrapbooking items for the next few days.

I apologise for any inconvenience.

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Slow Internet

April 9, 2008 at 7:36 pm (Uncategorized)

I do not know what is more frustrating, trying to push a snail along or not being able to get into my blog at all.

I can upload stuff without too much of a problem but it takes ages and ages to insert a tiny little 30kb image into my post.  I promise it takes longer than uploading a two megabyte file to rapidshare, let me know if a description with a link will work for you, I will stick to word art until the problem can be resolved. 

I have a series in mind for all those gardening layouts that are going to be needed for the lovely spring flowers, even my autumn flowers merit a layout, my layouts are just lousy, still need to learn the ropes.  I prefer making stuff anyway.

I did change the settings on the comments section so you do not have to leave any info you do not want to, I know I do not always want to do so either, so I understand if you prefer not to leave a comment but let me know about the previews and if the comments section is “friendlier”.

I got some sad news today and need to process it, so I will get to some freebies again tomorrow or so.

Thank you all for the lovely comments.


We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions
of the bad people but also for the appalling silence of the good people.
Martin Luthor King Jr.

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Word Art and Song Lyrics 5/1

April 5, 2008 at 10:05 am (Uncategorized)

Size 360kb

Where Does The Good Go – Tegan and Sarah
Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the left over you
And how do you know, when to let go
Where does the good go, where does the good go
Look me in the eye and tell me you don’t find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won’t go
Look me in the eye and promise no love’s like our love
Look me in the heart and un break broken, it won’t happen
It’s love that breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
Real, happy and healthy, strong and calm, where does the good go
Where does the good go
Where do you go when you’re in love and the world knows
How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
What do you say it’s up for grabs now that you’re on your way down
Where does the good go, where does the good go

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Stand by Me – Ben E King
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No, I won’t be afraid
Oh, I won’t be afraid
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me, so
Darling darling stand by me
Oh, stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Ot the mountain
Should crumble to the sea
I won’t cry, I won’t cry
No, I won’t shed a tear
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me, and
(Repeat * 2 times)
Whenever you’re in trouble
Won’t you stand by me, oh stand by me

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Boys Don’t Cry – Plumb

You sit there on the couch
Sipping your scotch and ice
You turn the TV on
And tune me out again

So what would you say to me
If you could talk to me
You could ask anything
I wouldn’t lie
But you’re okay with this
Damaging awkwardness
So I’ll just play it safe
And keep it inside
‘Cause boys don’t cry

I used to hold your hand
So tight there was no question
But now even when you’re near
I’ve never felt so alone

So what would you say to me
If you could talk to me
You could ask anything

I wouldn’t lie
But you’re okay with this
Damaging awkwardness
So I’ll just play it safe
And keep it inside
‘Cause boys don’t cry

If you just stand beside me
I’ll keep you in my life
Tell me how much you love me
And I’ll be just fine
Don’t be afraid of me

So what would you say to me
If you could talk to me
You could ask anything
I wouldn’t lie
But you’re okay with this
Damaging awkwardness
So I’ll just play it safe
And keep it inside
‘Cause boys don’t cry

Lyrics From

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Tagged….?? LOL

March 28, 2008 at 3:02 pm (Uncategorized)

Ok I was tagged by Kyra of, thank you for thinking of me. I will post the rules and answer the questions but will have to break the chain as I do not know anyone else well enough to tag them yet…..but you are welcome to snag the questions and put them on your own blog.

Now I must tell 6 unimportant things about myself and then give this “stick” to 6 other nice people.

1. Make a link to the one who gave you the “stick”

2. Put the rules on your blog.

3. Tell us about six unimportant things or habits about yourself.

4. At the end give the stick to 6 other people with links

5. Leave a message on the blog of the persons you linked to, so that they now what it is about.

Now some things about me:

1. I like chili in all my food except breakfast.

2. I am not a morning person, ever.

3. My cats are my people.

4. I like Rugby

5. I love the rain 

6. I detest plastic bags

Here are instead six links to great blogs I visit regularly:

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More Frustration

March 24, 2008 at 7:08 am (Uncategorized)

I will be posting freebies again as soon as I am able to access my Blog properly again.  I could not open the blog at all the entire weekend and this morning I only have very limited access.

Still routing problems or some such at Telecom and the ISP’s.

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I was going to post some freebies or so I thought….

March 20, 2008 at 3:43 pm (Uncategorized)

We still have routing problems whatever that means and there is no indication of when it will be resolved, I will try to upload as soon as possible.

Very frustrated….

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Back at last

March 19, 2008 at 12:00 pm (Uncategorized)

That was frustrating, I know that I live in Africa and I try to be as accepting and tolerant of bad service as it is possible to be but when you are unable to get onto the internet in four days then you start to feel very discombobulated (terrible word, I know, but it describes the feeling best).

There will be freebies galore over the next few days and I will do my best to keep the download links straight.

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Rapidshare Question

March 11, 2008 at 2:33 pm (Uncategorized)

I contacted Rapidshare about downloading PNG files but they have not gotten back to me, can someone tell me how to download PNG’s from Rapidshare please?

I have zipped everything up and will reload them if necessary.

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Scrapbooking Freebies

March 3, 2008 at 5:40 pm (Freebies, Scrapbooking, Uncategorized)

Well I see some of my freebies have been downloaded, I hope you like them and thank you again to the ladies who listed my blog.  I am actually a tagger and I made most of the wordart for that purpose, that is why they are on the small side.  But I hope you can find some use for them.

I will be uploading an Etosha Kit soon, so watch this space.

Boy the internet connection is slow and most sites won’t open, I am so tired of dial up you would not believe it, it seriously cramps my style. But we are in the dark ages internet wise and there is no hope for improvement.

Here you go the freebies (they are all small files to download):



this one is larger than the preview


Size 497kb

“In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”

Martin Luther king Jr (1929 – 1968)

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